Love Pangs

What do I do with these thoughts of you? I don't know what to do, I think I'm in Love with you...I want to awaken your senses, touch every spot on you and see what it does to you...What will happen when I plant soft kisses behind your knees? I want to see passion overtake you so strong that you beg "please" when what your're really saying is please feel free to make a mess of me...Love me all over just don't let this be over-us on a high the sky can't even fathom. Nothing from that point on could ever just be random, every action, every look, every touch would have meaning, like I desire you, feel you, connect with you so deeply...because you allow me to give, to love, to just be me...

When

My mind travels sometime to a place deep within where I have never been before, but I find myself wanting more...of what could be. If I could just be me...allow my desires to surface and become reality-a part of me.

Cherish the day, the hour and the minute

I cherish today, I woke up okay...I saw my little girls sleeping in their beds and I smiled and rubbed their little heads...I thought of just how blessed I am, to still be alive and have a another day to live this life...I'm blessed because the love in my heart is growing ever so strongly...for the simple things, that mean more to me than any material gain...like the sound of my Mother's laugh, the clear blue sky so high, reflecting the vastness of this Universe...in which I can give and share love abundantly...

Rain drops outside my window

The rain pours outside my window and drops hitting the lake resembles thousands of tiny wings fluttering simultaneously. I enjoy the beating sound the rain makes as it escapes from the sky. I'm watching the trees sway as the wind rushes through...thunder rumbles far off in the distance and lightening streaks up the sky...

Life's game plan

I don't feel very valued by you, I feel as if you ridicule all I do...or even don't do. Our relationship is on the decline, must be some kinda fault of mine. I was too loud, I didn't let your words be heard...I should have apologized. I didn't realize I offended you, yet again. It seems I can't keep count of the offenses that have mounted and created a mountain between us. We fuss, we fight but passion overtakes us and brings us to the light, once more, now who's keeping score? We have temporary amnesia for a little while but it won't last cuz that's just our style...Not me though, not anymore, I give that up, I don't want to keep score..I want to stay in bliss like a memorable first kiss and keep smiling inside out with no regrets and no doubt. Life will be new for me this very minute, I plan to live it whether or not you are in it...

Utterances of She

My womb began to stir, the familiar yet not as strong feeling of contractions held me still for a while...I groaned a little and went inside this feeling...I thought of pregnancy, orgasms, love and releasing and I began to feel the pains disappear, I also felt more releasing as my womb cleansed herself of this months worries, doubts, fears and insecurites via my cycle. I felt more contracting and life-blood leaving my womb and I released...

Writing is my passion

So I have decided that what I need to do right now is write more...I have so much to say and I have to write to keep up with all of my thoughts. I owe it to myself to use my writing as a release for all of the things that have been going on in my life...I have big plans to become a full time writer...I think I have been trying to make excuses as to why I couldn't "possibly" write full time only...I need to work, I have to have undisturbed time, I have to make dinner, I have to make a call, I have to check the status of my resume on that website...yeah that's all good, but is it really making me feel fulfilled? To an extent it is but I want to free up and be who I was called to be...I have realized that I have to be me, others may not understand my choices at the moment but that is okay because I cannot live to please others...It's time to focus on what I want to see happen in my life and believe with all my heart and soul that it will manifest...