Being me, fully...

I am right in the middle of some deep changes going on in my life...the growth I have been experiencing is like a refreshing breeze on a sweltering day; energizing. Things that used to upset me easily don't hold any power over me, words I used to be afraid to express feel exceptionally good leaving my lips and I am enjoying an awareness about life that I had only dreamed of before. I have been learning so much about perspective, the power of my thoughts and how I choose to relay them. Maybe I am a bit more misunderstood by others these days, but that could be a good thing. Shedding my old skin is enabling me to grow from the restrictions I held onto; I finally feel like I can breathe a little easier as I journey on this new path of self discovery. There is still much work to be done, but I am ready for what lies ahead. I am open to getting to know what lies deep in my heart and soul. I can't fathom the need to control another or be controlled into what another person thinks I should be. I have played that role for many years, crying silent tears, wishing to be fully embraced for who I am but feeling too afraid to go there. Moments of clarity, intuitive insights, and time contemplating my journey has given me the boost that I needed to brave the winds of change. I made excuses, I gave myself more time but I couldn't be truly me when I wasn't in line with my destiny. I long to share my journey, my stories and my words with the world. It is not easy to accept such a task but knowing deep inside what I am being called to do, gives me the drive to push on through.

Sistar Circle

I will represent a new type of internal sensuality among women; we will be fearless, uninhibited, in tuned with our mind, bodies and emotions, and our dreams will be lived out in bliss. I'm so thankful for all of the beautiful sisters in my cypher...from all walks of life. I am more blessed than I can even begin to realize to have so many strong, shining, unique Queens in my circle. They all INspire me in so many ways. I have learned something positive from each of these lovely souls. All of my Sistars have something within them that I see in myself...In essence, we are connected through Spirit no doubt. We are Sistars...let the boundaries fall forever, let us embrace each other where we are; let us come together near or far. 

My Son still shines

Writing is...

I was thinking deeply this week about what writing really entails. There truly is a risk in writing and sharing my most intimate thoughts with the world. There is a chance of rejection, there is a chance of misunderstanding, but what keeps me going is that chance of relating. I have experienced connecting with others through my words and it is a beautiful connection; it creates a bond between writer and reader. I don't group all of my readers in one category, some are curious, some have similar stories and want to share as well, in any instance, I treasure the connection. I thought of what books are to me and what I feel when I read a book and this is what I came up with.
"Books are endless thoughts, experiences, stories (fiction and non-fiction) and adventures spoken from the heart of whomever is writing."
Being a writer means exposing a little more about yourself each time you reveal your thoughts. It is a most humbling risk to take, but so worth it. Writing gives me the willpower to move through life more with fluidity; to take my experiences and share them; learn from them.

I have looked back on what I wrote and saw so much emotion coming out, but then I saw my spirit become lighter with every word written.

Answers in the Ethers

Synchronicity, coincidences, and karma are occurrences that sometime stop us in our day to day thinking to really ponder; what is the message being conveyed? In our lives, sometime we brush aside things that the Universe is trying to show us. It is wise to be still and take in to account what needs to be revealed to us. I most recently noticed a pattern of looking at the time when the numbers are all the same; 1:11, 2:22, 3:33...at first I didn't do much but smile to myself when it would happen but being that numbers have significance I started paying more attention to this new habit of mine. Given all of the most recent changes occurring in my life, it only makes sense that little messages are coming at me from all sources! I'm finding that taking time to just be still, quietly reflecting on what is happening in my life at the moment and pooling all of this information to form a conclusion helps. There could be answers to the very questions I have about something in these subtle yet, obvious little moments of synchronicity.

Breaking the grip and allowing love through

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Free as a bird

I love myself enough to say goodbye to the madness, the sadness that has ruled my life long enough...You will notice some significant changes, in the way I speak, carry myself and most of all in the way I react. That one aspect will be my way of deflecting negative energy right back outward instead of harboring it within. I may have fallen a few times but I will always get back up and be my beautiful, intelligent and loving self. Nothing or no one will sway me.